What is FriendShip????

Did you ever thought what is friendship???
How it be, and how it could be???
Is it just say hello, and then we declare he/she as our friend???
Just easy like that???

And now....
just look at our friends....
is she or he or they can be our true friends??
are they really2 our friends or just "touch n go" friends??

or..

are they can be our enemy????
and....
look at ourselves...
are we qualified to have special friends like we have now???

are we as good as they are???

are we could be their true friends???

could help them when they in trouble???

hm....think....

there have been many years.....
everythings we share together..

happiness, sadness, hurt and moreover...

every feeling we shared without any secret in our heart...

the memory that we could not delete it in our life..

it is traditionally if we cried, hurt, happy, excited just because of our friends

all that thing are the colours of our life...

why we always said "friends forever, friendship never end, friendship has infinity value"... ???

Is it just a poem???
if you really appreciate them in your life, try to be nice with them..

maybe it is hard to say " i love you my friend"

but we could try to take care our friends and protect them..

always be beside he/she....

so many years ago...

my first school in my life was SK KLANG GATE...

it was a wonderful time in my life...

first time in my life i have a lot of friends, have bestfriends,

learn how to communicate with a lot of people

and everything was a first time...

when i am in secondary school...

since form 1 till form 3,

my life have been filled with a lot of colour with my friends at SMK TAMAN MELATI.....

i'm happy, though, open minded, sad, excited, angry, and furthermore because of them...

what i love them mostly is.....they have a value to protect their friends..

in other words is...they will unite....will protect their friends if anything happen..

all of them still in my memory and my heart...

then...

it is traditionally we have to seperate then...

after that, i always have a nightmare....

i did not find any friends like them anymore....

in 2 years at the "new place".....

i keep thingking about them...

hm...sorry to say..i'm not happy at "new place"..

because of friends..

i did not found any true friends like them anymore...

only a little friends i have at the "new place"...(i mean as my best buddy)

and...

i become a different..

i'm not happy and everything i do, i felt useless...

and after that.......

i keep remind myself...

i dont want to remember anything about my "new place"...

it's sound cruel...but i am very hurt at that "new place"...

however...there have been 3 years past after my "new place"

lately...all surround me make me thing about the "new place"...

hm...it is true at "new place" i learn a lot of things about life...
but....agh......
mybe i'm happy now because i can't remember a lot of things at my "new place"...
but...in another part of myself...
i know i miss all the memory at "new place"..
but now..
what could i do...???
if everytime i refresh my memory at "new place", i will hurt...
hm..
nowadays i only keep in touch with a few person...
that is really special in my life when i met them at "new place"..
i'm sorry....
truly, i am actually miss that "new place"..

then after then "new place"...
i further my study at new peaceful place...
i really relax, calm, and my mind open again..
i realize...
i found my true friends again..
however....maybe because of my past time, my nightmare in my life....
i lost a lot of memory....hm...
it is really hurt...
lost memory about the people i love...(i mean my friends)....
only by looking at their picture keep me refreshing about them...
but the best thing is..i could still keep in touch with them..

sometimes they call, sms, and i know they still my friends...

and now...
i am at UTeM...
hm...
and i dont want to miss a thing like what happened in my peaceful place...
thats why now...
every moment i try to keep the memory really tight at my mind and my heart..
keep it tightly so there is no one can take it away from me..
and..
i tried my best to capture their picture so it can be a moment that i can keep remind and always make me smile...

and also..

they is supportive, unite, and more open minded...

maybe 10 years soon, we all seperate....

but i dont want this relationship end....

i want to tell a story to my children about them all...

tell what we have been trough...

how we study....

enjoy ourselves...

and many more....
i love them all...

Refreshing My Memory To The Past

I still remember my lovely past time when i still a child. In that time i've been sent to my nanny house when my parents working from 8 am to 5 pm. I called my mom as "Mak" while my nanny as "Ibu". Ibu was the person who taught me about alphabet "a b c" until i master in it. Hahaha. She be my nanny until i was 7 years old. I miss her. On the other side,even though my mom working, she never forget me. She always bought me story books or colouring book and sometimes food for me. I love my mom. And it is still fresh in my mind every day i saw my mom coming home, i felt very excited ad than i ran to my house to see my mother. My mom always said that you must remember what you study today because soon u will use it again. And it's true! My mom also always bought soo many books for me to study and practice. Furthermore, she also asked me to make exercise inside the books before i can go playing at the outside. The best part is, the exercise that i must doing is more advance than i should do. When i was at standard 3, my mom ask me to do exercise for student at standard 4. Hahahhaha it sounds like crazy but that style can make me more clever than my fellow friends. But now, why i don't follow my mom style yeah??? If yes, nowadays i must be the cleverest person in this world...hahahaha( daydreaming again). About my father, sometimes he always make me laugh but sometimes i got no response from him when i was telling something. Haha what so ever he still my dad. Then there many years past and i grown up. I became a teenager. People always said the hardest part in your life was when you are a teenager. And that is true!! I know everyone of us have been through in this situation. Trap between era of child and adult. When i at 11 and 12 years old, i always keep myself inside my room and locked the door. There is nothing i'm doing but i always keep away from my parents. I became a different person, always daydreaming and my study also going down. Hahahahah served me right. I don't know why i act like that. Hurm...maybe because of hormon..However i am very thankful to Allah because i can adapt my terrific time quickly. When i'm going to high school, i've learned about life, i met many wonderful friends that could bring me to the right way and also i do not keep away myself from my parents again. When i'm going to a boarding school, i realize that i missed so much things to share with my parents. It is because after i entered a boarding school, there is no time i could spent more with my parents. In that time i'm crying because i felt very stupid because of my big decision in life. However, we dont know what it said "Hikmah dari Allah", after i entered a boarding school, my relationships with my parents are more thighten than ever. Everytime i want to back to hostel, i make sure i kiss my mom before back to hostel. I did not feel shy even though i kissed her in public. I dont want to miss anythings that very important in my life again. Until nowadays, my relationships with my family are very tight and i share every secrets with my mom like we are bestfriend. I love my parents..mak and abah.