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Friday, July 24, 2009

hu......~

it takes a long time for me to write a new post..
maybe because i'm busy with a lot of assignments and try to stabilize my life right now....
hahahahahah


with my new post today...
i would like to describe about 2 person that important in my life after my parents...
i do not know whether they read my blog or not...
but i don't care because i just want to say something interesting about them...
there is a girl and a boy that i met...

let me describe about this girl first..

she is older than me, but i'm bigger than her..hahahaha
sometimes...i always said to her...
"owh you just act like my mom"...
hahahahahha
before this i never realize bout that...
but..lately..when i heard she lecturing me...
oh ya..same as my mom..heheheh

sometimes i thought she just said meningless...
but..when i think again...it have moral story of what she has said to me...
for me..she is tough person...
in front of everybody, she tried so hard to be strong...
but inside her heart..she is really sensitive...
makes friend with her make me realize..
something in this worl with a different perspective..
but the most thing i really thankful to Allah is...

Allah gave me a bestfriend that can brought me to appreciate everythings in my life..
She taught me how to survive in this cruel world,
She taught me how to appreciate my all friends..
She taught me how to suitable myself with others person..
She also..taught me about love..hahahahah
And..for me..her life is so tough...

But..i really solute at her because she could survive herself...
She could act as a strong sister in front of her siblings...even thought she's crying inside...
However....her action usually change proportional to her mood..
aiseyh...sometimes make me confuse about her...

However..when i felt give up...her words make me wake up again...
i really thankful to her...but i can't said it to her..
because..nanti dier bangga terlebih pulak...hahahahah



hm..ok..lets me describe about another person..
about this guy...
hohoho..

i met him last semester...when i am in first year 2nd sem...
this guy make me tension, frust, sometimes i think he is arrogant..hahahaahah
at the first time i met him, i said owh "owh he is cute"..
BUT..after i know him..."AGHHHHH TENSION!!!"
i'm not tackle him, but i have to do works together with him..
a lot things i know about him...hopefully you all do not think in different ways..

what my impression about him is...he is straight guy..you can't make funny with him..
Perfectionist, less talk, doing works with his own style, stress when have a lot of works to do,
Fierce(hahahaha), he lives in his own world (suka buat hal sendiri),
and everythings i do, it must not same as what he expect...hohohoho
everything about him is really different with me, my life, my attitude, and i'm tension with him..

huhuhu...
but...more i know about him...more i become confuse.....
he's different with my first impression..really different...

hohoho...

sometimes his funny even though he does not know how to make joke
sometimes he act so sweet..and get me harder to forget him....
sometimes he is really bored, make me wanna to try to make him laugh..
sometimes i dream about him, and make me smile when i woke up in the morning...
now i know..
i love him..

but...

i realize..he never like me as i love him...

it's hard for me to forget him..he is everything around me...
aghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i don't know what to do, what to say, where should go and how could i do to forget him...
i did not tell him that i love him, because i am to shy to tell my feelings..
i just give him a lot of hints, i get positive feed back..but know i confused........
i am really confused why he act so sweet than nowadays just go away from my life...
he ignore me, never try to make joke with me again and lately we always have a fight...
aghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

where should i go???
in facebook i see him, in ym i know what he doing,
in real life...everyday there must be anyone telling me about him..
i dont want to love him, i want to forget him..
it is really hard for me to love him because i really2 love him....
i want to go away from him, but..i cant..
if i saw him, i know my feeling is getting more deeper...
the truth is, it is really hurt when i know he chat with my friends,
but in the same time he ignore me...angry at me...
everything i do there must be somethings wrong...

i hate him, hate, hate, hate!!!!!!
what could i do to forget him...
to replenish all my sweet memories with him...
if i have a portion to forget someone, i rather take it everyday even though it will make me die..
it is really hurt for me..
now i know, love is really sweet but hurt, happy but sad, enjoy but crazy..
agh i don't know what i'm saying..


what i want to say here..
if you love some one, tell him/her...
it does not means only to the person that you want to be with..
but...
the person that you think it is really important in your life..
like your mum, dad, friends and so on...
say it to them before it is too late and at that time you will feel regret..